December 2011
5 posts
i’m back to one meal a day
the thought of food disgusts me
i’m even more ill now but i don’t care and i know i should but if being skinny means being ill then i’m not bothered
everything is always about everyone else and you have no idea how shit that makes me feel
you make me feel completely awful and i can’t do anything about it at all
it’s just great to know that everyone likes you better than me and if i do anything that would suit myself then i’d end up with no one
i feel so horrible and awful and everyone else is so perfect and i’m just left out of everything as usual and it’s never going to change.
i shouldn’t get upset about hearing that i should want you to be happy but i can’t deal with it at all
i just want my dad
every day i think of how much better things could be if he were here
the one thing i want and the one thing i have no chance at all of doing is talking to him
i just want to be with him and amber and be happy again